Showing posts with label self-esteem. Show all posts
Showing posts with label self-esteem. Show all posts

Friday, January 20, 2012

PCOS ACNE and taking Photo's....

Zits, pimples, black heads, white heads, cysts..... whatever you call 'em.... I have them and I loath them.  I never experienced acne growing up, only in my 20's. I feel really awful with a face full of zits all the time, and constantly think (see* obsess)  about it.  I have slowly come to realize that I just can't control it.




While On birth control the acne would greatly improve but now that I want a baby TTC  birth control pills are not an option.  Metformin  & MetforminER so far have helped with the Acne, but by no means has it gone away.  I still have breakouts very often.  I can tell when a breakout is coming, because my entire face is sensitive to the touch around the soon to be pimple.  I am admittedly a picker too.  I just can't leave a white head alone - I know it's bad but I just can't help myself.


My breakouts are centered around my chin and mouth, which according to my dermatologist is purely hormonal.  I have been given every topical prescription a try and nothing works.  The medicine just dries out my face in addition to a host of acne.  Having constant acne is really hard on my self-esteem.  Acne is a constant throne in my side.




I love taking pictures and ppl. have told me I am very annoying about it.  Since my struggle with acne I noticed I was shying away from the camera - and in some cases wouldn't even bring it out. I realize now that is silly....I know now I want the memories.  My parents have loads of pictures from when we are kids and I love looking at them, it's important to me to document!  So en light off my acne prone skin, I have become a huge fan of photos that are not in focus, dark, or far away- it draws less attention in my opinion to my face I feel comfortable taking the pics.... and I still will have the memories documented.    See examples below.

A glamorous far away photo of me!
December 2011 

A glamorous fuzzy photo of me!
November 2011


A glamorous Dark photo of me!
NYE 2011