Laser Hair Removal : another PCOS problem.

This was by far the best decision, I kick myself for not doing it sooner.  As you may or may not know a symptom of PCOS is:

Hirsutism: 

condition produces excess hair growth

notably on the face, chest, abdomen, thumbs, or toes.

I'ts not pretty, and ever since I noticed these symptoms I have longed for colder weather!  I feel much more comfortable in winter clothes where I can cover.  Since I live in Chicago I have to be prepared for any type of weather at any time - which means my razor is getting a pretty good workout.  Anyways, one day I saw a special on Groupon for Laser Hair Removal (LHR) - on an impulse I bought it.  It's funny because even though I am embarrassed about the excess hair - it took me some time to build up the courage to call for an appointment.  I still feel a bit weird about it.  


Well, I now kick myself for not doing it sooner.  One of my trouble areas is my bikini line - and so far I have had 3 treatments (8weeks apart) and I wish I would have done it sooner.  I have 3 more to go and I am really looking forward to the final results.  Some may wonder, does it hurt?  I can only say that it doesn't feel great - but tolerable, and the pain goes away very quickly.  I also have lily white skin & dark brown hair - I hear that is the best combo the Laser will work on.  I don't use the numbing cream - although I think if it was a bigger area or more sensitive- I would defiantly consider asking for it.  


I may become a (LHR) junkie, it totally beats out shaving and it has really improved my self esteem!


Feel free to message me with any questions.  

Up Date

So, things have been going well.  In the back of my mind I think I am going to Jinx myself if I get too positive!  But, they have been going better... much better.  No more weight loss to speak of since the major (almost 10lb weight loss) but I feel like my body is starting to take a more defined shape.  I feel only slightly better about my appearance.

I did get a period last month the cycle length was a bit longer 38 days.  It came, was longer then the last period and I didn't have major symptoms like I have had in the past.  Usually, I was somewhat able to guess when I thought my period may be close because my face would break out like crazy.

This month I was lazy about Ovulation testing, my husband urged me to test... and it's a good thing because on my second day of test I got a surge.  I would have missed it - close call.

stay tuned... hope everyone is well.  :)

Looking Real.

Sometimes a magazine will do a special article where the star has no makeup on, and everyone praises them.  I don't know what reality is anymore, and I think most American women are clueless too.  I am sick of looking at what the media represents as a beautiful women. I can see airbrushing out a pimple, maybe some crows feet around the eyes - but scooping out a women hips, who is suppose to be famous for being curvy.. now that I just don't understand.  

The above pic is in a current magazine that women love and the article is about bikinis at every age. Um, seriously who is in the art dept?  The photo of KK looks ridiculous - and frankly they all do.  Thus, real women like myself keep struggling to fit in and it's mostly fake anyways... so insanely frustrating.  

Even though I lost about 10 lbs. I don't notice a change in myself, and I still struggle with the weight gain from PCOS and finding myself in the mirror again. 

It usually happens this way....

Field of Dreams

If I write about not getting my period, history has it when it comes to this blog....

"If I write it, it will come".  Sometimes I think building a baseball field would be easier!  :)


So anyways according to my calendar, going off last month my period should be about 3 days away.  By this time normally (if my period were to arrive) I would have a face full of zits, backache, bloating, and be very VERY cranky.

I have the cranky part down, but that could be from outside stresses and lack of sleep this week.  I am not very patient person so anything that involves waiting is so hard for me.  I am driving myself crazy reading other blogs, stats on ovulation, signs of pregnancy, and PMS symptoms. Just a reminder I did have a surge this month, so that was encouraging.

I just so badly want infertility to be something in the back of my mind.  I would really be breathing a sigh of relief if this cycle was nearing the 34 days apart like the last one, otherwise I have to start to consider other options.  My Endo upped me to the max on MetforminER (1st month on the higher dose) in hopes to get the cycle regular.

Fingers crossed, everyone say a prayer.

Sexy and I know it....

kinda.

I am though feeling much better about myself.  Today I weighed in at 149.4 - Go me!  ( I was pretty much in shock when I saw that number)  I wasn't particularly watchful of my eating this holiday weekend, maybe it was because I was more active (or it was crazy hot and I was mega sweaty).

Whatever the case maybe I am glad that the numbers on the scale are still showing improvement.  I expect my AF soon, so fingers crossed that my plumbing is working as though it should.

Surge

Clear Blue Easy  - Surge

So this morning after 18 days of faithfully testing for ovulation, I got a surge.  


Bad news, hubby is out of town..... we were able to baby dance 36 hours ago before he left.  So there is still a slight chance, right?


I was getting discouraged, since I had started taking double the MetforminER dosage earlier in the month.   I had no idea how that was going to affect me.  I was concerned that it was going to throw everything off.  I also started taking Vitamin D after I saw a study that found I (PCOS women) am most likely deficient and it can greatly affect my ability to conceive... stay tuned I am going to post it on my page soon.  

Test stick showing a surge

Seems like things are on going on the right direction, a surge is a good                  sign.  I am as usual, feel re-energized about things. I only had 2 sticks left and was a little worried I wouldn't get a surge at all.  I'll take any of the positive signs I can get.  


I think I am starting to learn to read my body better as well.  Which is really hard emotionally first off.  It's not like I can put baby making out of my mind when every morning I am peeing on a stick to see what my chances are.  Even with my husband traveling I am hoping that I am better able to read things, and if need be I can fly to meet him when I think ovualtion will happen if he happens to be on the road.  So a good day - a step in a positive direction.  Feeling slightly better.  


In regards to ovualtion kits I have used a lot and by far Clear Blue easy is the most easy to use.  It takes the guess work out of reading the test lines, and you can feel confident in a surge or not.  It's about $40.00  - but well worth the price.  I have used about 4 other brands and if I had to endorse a kit this would be the one.  

Mother's Day

Mother's Day

Happy Mother's Day to all the Mom's!

If someone else wishes me happy mother's day - I don't think I'll be able to take it.

I know ppl. are being courteous and such, and they don't know whats going on with me..... but it's really annoying me.

Maybe since I thought I was on the right track with  PCOS, but now I am having a hard time tracking my ovulation and my face looks like a 14teen year old.  I feel like I am in a slump today.  I think the thing that throws my mood off the most is the acne.... even if you can't yet see it, I can feel the painful cysts and it's so hard to deal with.  The acne totally ruins my self confidence.

I just need to snap out of it I guess.