I really don't enjoy shopping like I used to and I am no longer interested in going places where I may need to dress up. I have never been a gal that "needed to put her face on" before going out, I used to be totally secure in my appearance. I only used makeup when I wanted to - and felt totally fine leaving the house in "lazy stretch pants" or a basic hoody. Now, it's the opposite - I feel extremely insecure about my appearance. I have zero desire to "dress up" or "put on make up" I actually view it now as a huge chore, rather then something I used to enjoy.
I have a closet that ranges from size 4 to 14! It's maddening to me - to be reminded of all the things that I love - that simply do not fit.
Although, one good thing (good kind of) to come out of this weight struggle is I have gotten better about "saving" clothes. Classic example 2 years ago I bought a winter jacket near the end of the season on sale with the plan to "save" it and wear it as a new winter jacket the following winter. Well, as you may have guessed it doesn't fit... and most likely never will. I am not saving anything anymore... who knows if it will fit next week?!? Does anyone else save clothes? I used to do it all the time. I also have noticed that I like to stick to key pieces in my wardrobe - and then I totally wear them out and ignore other clothing, but that is a separate issue.
I think this week I am going to try to sort out my-closet and get serious about donating, wearing and of course a small hopeful pile for some items that I love and can hope to fit in to. My closet causes me much anxiety - b/c I know that I really don't have many items that fit - or that I need to try on to see if they fit. To the unsuspecting eye - you'd think I was obsessed with clothes. So check back this week and I'll keep you updated on how it went.